As I was laying in bed reading Eckhart Tolle's book A New Earth last night, this sentence jumped out at me and struck me like a lightning bolt.
There are so many times that I want more more more. Isn't that essentially what much of our culture is about? We are so often taught to want more, to never be satisfied, to be selfish, to take from the world.
I realized that when I am wanting more and feeling like I'm not getting what I want or deserve, it's because I'm focusing on taking rather than giving. It's like waiting for inspiration to come from the outside instead of listening and cultivating it within yourself. If I am waiting for the world to give me the opportunity to express my genius, comparing myself to others in the process, thinking "it's not fair," then I am not giving my true self to the world. I am withholding the genius that already exists within me (and within all of us) from the world. If I think the world is withholding abundance from me, really I am not living abundance in the world. I am living lack. I am withholding that positive energy from the world. It's all about giving. If I want abundance, I need to be and give away abundance. If I am already abundance, how could I receive anything other than that?
Tolle goes on to say that "you are withholding it because you think you are small and that you have nothing to give."
Do I withhold the genius within because I think I'm small and what I have to give is of no significance? Yes. I think many of us feel this way, because we compare ourselves to others who seem to know more, have more, do more.... when really, each of us has our own unique and incomparable experience of life, and that is what we each have to give.
Each of our experiences can help someone, and if we go into each situation asking myself "how can I be of service?" then the world will respond by saying "how can I be of service to you?"
I'm going to try this out for the next few weeks and see what happens.
Have a terrific weekend!